I never ended up getting the roof fixed. I'm sure the next time I'll post here it'll be about the roof of my bathroom caving in. :')
I'm about to go off on a rant here about my job, heads up. Not the most exciting thing to read but shrug sorry (not sorry).
So I've mentioned in the past that we have cats for adoption at the veterinarian office that I work at and the two cats that were there were adopted together, yay! So I've been keeping the area clean just in case any new cats come in when I'm not there. I work two (short) shifts a day six days a week - my only day off is Monday - so if any cats come in during the middle of the day I won't be there to get them situated.
Yesterday morning I was going about my usual morning cleaning and when I went past the adoption room a tiny blur of movement caught my eye. I kinda froze in place because I wasn't told ahead of time that we would get a cat or two. But things happen so I quickly make my way inside the room. Oh, there's three cats? Alright. ... another one? Okay, four is fine but another -- oops, another's under this cushion. Five cats? That's a lot. So I start to set everything up because whoever put these cats in here only gave them TWO LITTER BOXES and a bit of food. And that's when I found the sixth cat.
So, without warning, I was given SIX YOUNG CATS to take care of. If I worked at a shelter I would be used to this but I'm just one person taking care of all the boarders and adoptable cats. And these cats are very young, too big to be kittens but too young to be considered fully grown. I am garbage at guessing the age of cats and dogs. Also, take in consideration that when kittens pee it's much smellier than adult cat pee. Having six cats using two litter boxes - and these were regular sized litter boxes when I first encountered them yesterday - is asinine and disgusting.
I cleaned up the mess and the room as best I could before my shift ended. My night shift yesterday was slow so I made my way up to the room to get the cats used to my presence. There are two cats that are very scared (so I've been letting them be for now), two cats who are shy but don't mind me touching them and the other two cats - I keep spelling 'cars' instead of 'cats' - are outgoing and sweet. One had a bit of... something on his back so I went to grab a comb to brush it out.
That's when I found the flea.
So they have fleas and I can't interact with them. I admit that I forgot to give my cat, Big Frank, his anti flea/tick meds at the beginning of August so as soon as I got home last night I gave him his dose for the month. When I told a coworker about the fleas she told me that they just got an over-the-counter flea/tick med but she'll have to ask the doctor on duty what to do next.
They have four litter boxes now - when it comes to the amount of litter boxes you'll need for cats the best thing to do is take the amount of cats you have and add one so I'll need seven to keep it clean. But we don't have seven litter boxes at the moment because we also have two cats boarding... I'll just clean them as often as I can.
Did I mention that the sink I use to clean out said litter boxes is broken?
And that it's been broken for almost a month?
Granted I can turn the water on and off via the knobs under the sink but it leaks really bad. I have to wash everything all in one session - usually for very dirty litter pans / bowls (which are really the only two things I wash by sink - I wash them separately of course) I let them soak in hot water for a minute or two before cleaning them out. Nope, can't do that either. The other sinks in the hospital are too small for the bigger litter boxes. I suppose I can use the tub to wash items but I don't want to use the one we have for that because we have an active groomer now.
I don't even know who we got these cats from but if we got them from the same older lady that we previously did then it's the second batch in a row that have been dropped off here with fleas. She's alright, a bit awkward but that's alright because I'm awkward too. The only thing that stuck with me about her was that she wanted to adopt two of the cats that she dropped off and I was thinking, "Uh, so why don't you?". I mean I guess she might have enough cats to take care of but those cats weren't from the same litter so why not... keep them at your shelter? I mean if that's all you can talk about while I'm trying to take care of the cats it's obviously bothering you.
... whew, I think that's about it. I do feel a bit better now. I'll continue to do the best I can at my job but this morning I was really taking everything into consideration and got pissed. Don't forget to spay and neuter your pets, folks, it's important!
... what if I come in tonight and I find a seventh cat? Cats ARE good at hiding... honestly at this point it would just be funny to me.
heavy rainstorm occurring on my only day off this week
Me: hmmm yes good let's use the bathroom before i take a nap--
a leak in the ceiling is causing a steady but small stream of water to fall into the tub
Me: .............. at least it's leaking water into the tub....
nap opportunity = ruined
I only have $800, if it's more than replacing a few shingles on the roof I'm fucked. The rain is going to stop HOPEFULLY in a couple hours, I left a message for a roofer nearby and told them that I'm looking to make an appointment for tomorrow. I'm waiting for my estate lawyer to contact me today ASAP (plan on calling the office in the afternoon if I don't hear from her) so I'm waiting for two phone calls now. It's my day off and I have nothing else to do but just waiting for phone calls make me so nervous.
I'm still playing Final Fantasy Tactics: The Lion War of the Lions and I wanted to get the "Tough. Don't Blame Us. Blame Yourself or God - During the battle at Zeltennia Cathedral, allow Delita to land the killing blow on Confessor Zalmour" achievement. Well, okay, that doesn't seem that hard... so when the battle starts Delita goes first, casts Hallowed Bolt on Zalmour and OHKOs him before I can even think about the rest of the battle.
... so I got the achievement but, even more importantly, witnessed a battle in Final Fantasy Tactics end in the first turn. I'm still stunned.
oh hell yeah vargskelethor joel is replaying DK64, based - my leg is still sore by the way! - i've never beaten that game but it's a blast to play and his previous DK64 streams were fun too. i have a feeling that he feels the same way about this game in the same way i think of OB64 - highly underrated (okay well ob64 is much less well known) and we both get very defensive about the games when explaining why they're so good. i dunno if he's ever spoken about OB64 since the N64 library is so small and OB64 is considered one of the... three or four RPGs on the console.
I think the main reason why he's my favorite streamer at the moment is not only is he hilarious but because he ignores what his chat wants him to do about 98% of the time and has fun doing his own thing. I know a lot of his fans hate that he doesn't stream as often as other streamers but I only watch his VODs so I can't really chime in on that. Honestly good on him for taking breaks away from streaming whenever he wants to.
I will say that Voices of the Void as a game just isn't interesting enough to grab my attention like the OG Signal Simulator did but I'm too stupid to understand the mechanics of the game to begin with.
Oh shit, he's going to 100% DK64? Good fucking luck.
i was watching this and while i was laughing at the corrupted hannah montana gba theme i stretched my legs and pulled a muscle in my left lower leg so while i was continuing to laugh at the demonic sounds i was crying out 'OH MY FUCKING GOD THAT HURT' and i was so much pain i thought 'i'm going to die of pain and the only clue about how i croaked is going to be vargskelethor's hannah montana linux bit playing on my computer' which caused me to laugh even harder, it's been three hours since that happened and i'm still in pain but goddamn getting injured while watching a video of THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS song getting corrupted is a new low for me
I want to update my webpage but this summer has been brutal to my mental health. :(
2026 - 1:20PM
We've been getting so many Bernedoodles - Bernese Mountain Dogs mixed with Poodles - at work lately and I'm just stunned at WHY people think making that combo a (ugh) 'designer breed' would be a good idea. For one Bernese Mountain Dogs have a Swiss phrase associated with them - "Three years a young dog, three years a good dog, three years an old dog; anything else is a gift from God." (I thought it was five years but I guess not.) They don't have very long lifespans.
Bernedoodles, and any other other doodle mixes, also tend to have severe seperation anxiety especially when they're young. And they're BIG dogs too with such a thick coat to take care of... and I'm always reading stories about matted doodles on places like /r/doggrooming. I hate that people are continuing to make new doodle breeds. There's NO NEED FOR THEM. This isn't something like adding a bit of beagle genetics to pugs to make their snout longer (so that they can actually breathe), it's just greed and stupidity for monetary gain.
I honestly believe that there's a stigma around poodles being difficult and 'snooty' dogs to own - now that I'm thinking about this it seems like they're always been considered a 'women's dog'. But the negative stereotypes couldn't be further from the truth. I love purebred poodles, they are extremely smart and quite playful! And for the most part the doodles that I meet are the same but it's just a shame that owning a trendy doodle can be seen as a status symbol. It seems like a lot of doodles are being dropped off at shelters nowadays too - nowhere near the extent of APBTs and other bully breeds of course but I certainly have been seeing more adoptable doodles in the shelters near me.
Anyway, now for something different. The last part of me being accepted into the bank's hardship program for my mortgage payments is getting the deed to the house transferred to my name from my father's so I left a message for a estate lawyer that's the closest to my house around 8 this morning... he hasn't called me back yet and I've been a nervous wreck all day. If he doesn't call back tomorrow I'll make sure to call back when the office is open - I'm terrible at talking on the phone so I called when the office was closed to leave a message on the office's answering machine - to speak to someone. And if that doesn't work I'll try another lawyer. 🤦🏻
The process doesn't seem that difficult when the deed's being transferred from a deceased parent that didn't have a will to their child who is now the admin of their estate so it's not like I'll have to even go to court or anything.
It sucks because I'm doing what I can and also doing as MUCH as I can every day but it never seems like it's enough. Sometimes I think something like, "If I were a normal person without mental illnesses I wouldn't be in this position right now," and get sad.
And get this! I need to make the amount of two monthly payments now for my mortgage! I saved up as much as I could between paychecks (I get paid every two weeks) and called to make a payment but the customer service rep said I had to make the amount of two payments. That's an extra $900 that I DON'T HAVE. But I just don't understand why I couldn't just make the usual payment! The guy was just like, "uh yeah well you just have to make two payments now" when I asked why.
I tried looking this up on google but the results I'm getting aren't making any sense. So, yeah, I would really appeciate that lawyer contacting me ASAP so that I'll know what to do next!
... but in the meantime I'm reformatting my manga review page. For now it's just going to be ratings instead of reviews, I just want to get the stupid layout up. And I'm also playing the FFT PSX hack "The Lion War of the Lions". Despite my dislike of the actual rom name it's a lot of fun so far.
the only bad thing about this site is that you can't edit your previous posts, for example i meant the poop bucket at work and the delivery for the air conditioner will be NEXT friday
just wanted to point that out, i... don't have a bucket like that at home (since i have no dog)
Hey, I made a small site update! Baby steps.
I swear to god when I opened the poop bucket to dump some poop (there's a trash bag inside don't worry) a butterfly came out. It was one of those blue and black ones - apparently it's a red-spotted purple (Limenitis arthemis astyanax) butterfly. You see a few of them this time of year, they're super pretty!
Yesterday was one of the worst days everrr, I spoke to yet another asshole at M&T Bank, my A/C is broken when it's too hot out and it seemed like everything went wrong. But I'm better now. I ordered a $99 portable A/C unit from Amazon - I know, I know, but Home Depot's prices were insane - and it'll be here Friday. Couldn't get faster shipping. But I'm glad I did because the $99 price was also the same as the visiting fee for a repairman to come on Thursday and god knows how much more THAT would've cost.
The A/C in my house has a good chance to come back on when it's not... you know, almost 100 degrees out. From what I could tell from my online searches the 'sensor error' that's causing the problems might be due to the extreme heat making the outside sensor work. But thankfully I'm not that hot inside at the moment. 🤞🏻 There's plenty of trees surrounding the house, my father had the good sense to put up blackout shades on all the windows and I have a lot of fans. At night I pull up the windows and reposition the fans I have on so that they're blowing out the hot air outside. I'll be fine. I'm going to snag some extra churu from work (it's for all the employees) and freeze 'em for Big Frank.
I also have wet washcloths in the freezer for tonight as well as my pillowcase LMAO the sheet is off my bed too because my bed is so old and lumpy that it's always loose and I could NOT get to sleep with it on last night. It's supposed to rain past 5 PM tomorrow so 🤞🏻 again that it'll get cooler!
Oh, yeah, happy Independence Day or whatever. There's so much traffic heading towards the shore right now even outside my house and I'm worried about pulling out of my driveway. Who the hell wants to sit in traffic when it's almost a hundred degrees out?! Shoobies are nuts. I will NEVER understand the hype of going down to the Shore for the weekend during the summer. The other seasons? Sure. But the thought of dealing with the traffic plus the heat and the crowds... ugh, that's hell for me.
As someone who has lived in southern New Jersey all her life, the best time for tourists to visit the shore would be April through early June and during all of autumn. Cape May is especially beautiful in the autumn! During the weekdays it's just nice to walk around the Washington Street Mall area and it's not crowded at all. There's a lot of pretty buildings in that area too.
Anyway. I hope everyone is staying safe and cool!
Ah, okay, got it. Markdown formatting is hard for me to remember. Here's the cheatsheet I'm using. And this page is helpful too.
As I mentioned on my status.cafe page I'm getting out of another depression... streak? I've been this way for about two weeks now. I mean, I'm taking my meds and all, I just can't pinpoint exactly when this all started for once. Usually it's a tiny thing that sets off my period of melancholy (holy cow that sounds stupid), sometimes as simple as a coworker not saying goodbye to me when I say goodbye to them. That was the cause of the previous one.
I've been sleeping a lot more on my break between shifts. I keep the light on in my room and I'm telling myself that 'having the light on now will help me sleep better at night when the lights are off'. I think it's working.
Literally, as I was going to write about applying for mortgage assistance, I recieved an email stating that I was denied. Of course it didn't tell me why, it stated that the reason was in the mail that we sent me. A few days ago I called the assistance line at the bank asking when I'll hear back from the relief department (or whatever) and the dickhead on the other end told me that 'it'll probably take more than two weeks to get to your letter'. (I sent the letter two weeks before I called.)
So now I'm anxious about it again. I'm doing EVERYTHING I can to ask for help paying for my mortgage. It's $1,200 a month and that's a good $200 less than the rent for any apartment I can find in the area. ... I don't want to write about it. I'm so tired. I need a vacation (haha) or a short break but I only work part time and I need the money.
I'm going to make this page my default journal link on the next update because there has been times that I've wanted to make an entry but was too lazy to make changes to the page and upload it to Neocities.
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